SEASON FOR LOVE?

it seems like i was just doing my homework and when i looked up, all these couples had popped up.
-- an aptly spoken comment by a friend

there must be something in the water
-- the response from another friend

this past semester, it seems like so many people found their "soul mate." at least, a lot of people around me have. admittedly, all this happy news has left me with much joy but not without also an intense conversation with my Creator:

me: God, i know you'll bring the right person to me when i'm ready.
God: yes.
me: so will i ever be ready?
[silence]
am i not good enough?
[silence]
i'm not good enough.
God: i *died* for you, didn't i?
me: [looking down uneasily] yes...
God: look at the sky. i created a spectacular sunset for you tonight.
[i look out the window]
can't you see i'm romancing you?
me: it *is* beautiful.
God: *you* are beautiful. why do you doubt Me?
[more silence]
me: [breaking down] i'm so selfish and bitter, God. there's still so much refining you have to do in me. i'm afraid i'll never be ready.
[He doesn't speak. gently, He holds me in His arms in an eternal embrace.]

O LORD, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.

You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my every thought when far away.

You chart the path ahead of me
and tell me where to stop and rest.
Every moment you know where I am.

You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, LORD.

You both precede and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.

Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to know!

I can never escape from your spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!

If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the place of the dead, you are there.

If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.

I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night--
but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.

To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are both alike to you.

You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother's womb.

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous--and how well I know it.

You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed. They are innumerable!

I can't even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up in the morning,
you are still with me!
~Psalm 139:1-18 (TLB)~