when a butterfly breaks out of its cocoon, it struggles - long and hard. but in the process of struggling to get out of the cocoon, it pushes the extra fluid out of its wings so that when it is released, it can fly. if you were to "help" the butterfly along by cutting the cocoon, you would end up with a half developed butterfly that can only fall to the ground.
as much as i hate to admit it, i need to struggle, too.
"guard your heart," God said. but it was too easy not to listen. we're only friends, we can talk every day, go for dinner alone, hang out - just the two of us...
"guard your heart," He whispered. but God, you're still first in my life! i still spend time with you every morning. it's true, i might be thinking of him more these days, but...
"guard your heart." i'm trying!!! really. it feels nice to be treated special though...
"guard your heart, my love." i've failed, God. my heart hurts. now i see why commitment is essential before emotional intimacy should be entertained. i deceived myself. i was selfish. not only did i not guard my own heart, i didn't guard his either! i'm sorry, Lord! heal me?
"i always love you. you are my child." right. i'd almost forgotten...
i guess sometimes i need to fall before i understand a lesson. hopefully, i've learned this one this time.
Proverbs 4:23
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